“You can’t do this!”
“Turn back you fat cow!”
“See you can barley make it up this hill!”
“They are laughing at you fatty.”
My mind told me as I attempted to hike up a steep hill, I stopped a little bit after I began because I became out of breath. I just stared at the path a head of me. The uphill battle on this very steep hill was obvious, but the only thing I couldn’t help but think was I have to do this. I had to hike this hill that lead to a place called Victory Circle but the enemy kept trying to get me down, kept trying to get me to turn around.
Being a bigger, heavier set woman, hiking isn’t my strongest suit and the enemy knew that. Being a fluffier person hiking a steep hill can cause you to be out of breath very quickly, it can be embarrassing and the enemy knew that. As I stood there I had seen large boulders with words on them, scriptures to be exact. The first boulder was Isaiah 41:10
Don’t be afraid for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you, I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.”Isaiah 41:10 NLT
Standing there completely alone staring at that rock and the words on it, I probably looked odd to those if they were around to see it, I instantly felt a presence that was giving encouragement. I was not longer afraid and intimidated by the ratherly large hill before me. I heard an inner voice say “You can do this Alexis, don’t give up!” the voices of the enemy went quiet for a moment. So I began to climb the hill again, pushing myself to finish this walk. My legs began to hurt and I quickly became out of breath, the enemy came back “You look foolish, trying to walk a tiny hill, acting like it is hard”. My anxiety started to kick in, I debated on turning around, and started to listen to the enemy.
Yet again I had seen another boulder with yet another scripture, I began to wonder if Forest Homes put these scriptures on these rocks purposely in this order. I stopped to read it
But you belong to God, my dear children. You have already won a victory over them, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world.”1 John 4:4 NLT
Again the inner voice “You already got this, keep going!” so I listened, I didn’t turn around and I didn’t give in. I didn’t care that I was hurting from hiking, I didn’t worry about looking like a fool for being out of breath on a steep hill than everyone else probably could have made easier. I pushed on. As I did so the scripture boulders became more frequent. Each on with more words that fulled that inner voice to become a loud roar verse and quiet whisper.
Yet in all these thing we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.”Romans 8:37 NKJV
When I finally reached the top of this steep hill to Victory Circle I stood there panting, hunched over and in awe that I made it. Sweat rolled down my face as I gasped for air, with how many times I thought I was failing or wanted to turn back I pushed through. Going up this path I didn’t know if I wanted to finish, I didn’t know if it was worth it, but I still finish and made it. The last scripture boulder stood at the entrance
My Victory and honor come from God alone; He is my refuge, a rock where no enemy can reach me.”Psalms 62:7 NLT
Take A Way Lesson
The scenery at the top of this hill was so beautiful and worth the climb. I needed to climb this hill not only to prove myself that I could do it but to learn a lesson that I want to share with you, don’t let the enemy tell you “You Can’t”
Often times in the darkest of moments and when we are alone the enemy tells us many things. Things that are meant to discourage you, to hurt you, to make you walk of the path your meant for, and most of all to snuff out a light inside of you. However when we remember that we belong to God they can’t hold you, they have no power over you.
A inner voice will rise and tell you “You CAN!”
As a person who suffers from anxiety I can personally tell you how hard it is to want to listen to the voice (God) telling you “You Can!”. Anxiety is just another form the enemy that is there to steal, kill, destroy. Anxiety makes you think and over think some more, it makes you feel worthless and alone. It isolates you and tells you your can’t but I am here to tell you “You Can” even when it feels like you can’t
I personally battle the enemy and my anxiety daily; I battle not wanting to get out of bed because I feel that’s my only safe haven, I battle my mind saying that the people I know are just fake faces who pretend to care, I battle talking to anyone in fear of looking like an idiot. I battle going in public, dressing up nice, and worst of all I battle the enemy on my faith.
However I have a secret weapon which isn’t a secret weapon though! Why because I know what trump’s all of those things I battle. I know who defeats all of it for me when it isn’t my job to fight. For the longest time and sometimes still I have problems telling the difference between who is talking to me, God or Satan, but I know in the end who I need to remember is on my side for the better of things.
I am here today to tell you “You Can” because I know you can. Through everything, he can help you! It may take time and you probably won’t see results or answers right away but you most certainly CAN! The enemies voice are strong and they have a very powerful hold but God’s voice is stronger and help quiet them better. You are not meant to fight this alone, you are not meant to live this life alone, letting him take over and help you fight is probably the best thing you can do!
I have suffered most of my life from feeling inadequate, unworthy, and unqualified. But I am still here standing
well sitting in front of a computer to help you know you can. Don’t let the enemy tell you “you can’t”, here’s why……..
Because You Can!
When you are walking up your steep hill, whatever your battle is. It could be finances, marital problems, addition, health problems, or just a plain very steep hill. Remember don’t let Satan convince you you can’t, don’t let his lies and schemes deceive you because you and him both know YOU CAN. The enemy doesn’t want you to succeed but we both know YOU CAN.
What is one thing you want to overcome? If your willing to tell me I would love to help pray for you to overcome it! Here